11 August 2017, Friday
So we are officially 10 days away from implantation - I can’t actually believe it! Getting very excited and a little anxious.
Been trying to prep… went for a colon cleanse last week and this week (after the antibiotics my stomach was a mess!), still on the daily green juice and a few ginger / health shots. Getting in a few sessions of gym in while I can. Want to take a break after implantation day. Take it easy they say. So easy it shall be.
I wanted to share this amazing spiritual experience I had this week. Was insane... unbelievable actually.
At a dinner last week I was chatting to two good friends of mine and catching them up on my IVF etc. and the one suggested I try something called remote healing so I didn’t ask to many questions and thought ah why not, cant do any harm. Anyway left it at that and my friend messaged a few days later sending me the ladies details. The more I thought about it, the more apprehensive I became. I'm not really curious when it comes to things like that. I believe some things are better left. I don’t do psychics or mediums or any of that. I believe life happens as it should.
Anyway my friend followed up a few days later and I thought ah let me get in touch with this lady, REALLY having no clue what to expect. Anyway we scheduled time for my first session, this past Wednesday evening. Basically this lady is based in UK, you set a time, you go and relax in a quiet place and she taps into your energy and helps you heal and gets rid of things such as blockages - the idea is to create balance.
This is SO out of my comfort zone but I kept reminding myself to be open minded. Time for my session came, she said she would message me after the session to tell me how it went but I must relax, I may feel vibrations in my body and I may doze off.
So I relaxed at 8pm on the dot, a few minutes in I felt a heavy sensation over me, I tried to lift my arms / legs, I couldn’t…. HUH!? Anyway I remained relaxed, felt a sharp pain here and there. I was very aware for the first few minutes, but after that I zoned out completely. I didn’t sleep but went into almost a complete rest state. Was odd, I don’t relax easily! Then true as nuts I felt a few vibrations. INSANE! Next thing I knew I rolled over, looked at my bedside clock and it was 9pm. Honestly like maybe 10 minutes had passed.
I was blown away! I felt incredible.
I am having another session with her this weekend. So lets see…
I don’t want to get to enthralled by this all but I do believe it can only do good! She did say it took a while to clear my energy field because of lots of “stuck and dense” energy which was a true reflection of everything I have been through.
This was a very spiritual experience and in fact she is a very religious lady and does this as she feels its her calling. She doesn't charge a cent for it. Think what you like… I as a skeptic and I can wholeheartedly say it was pretty unbelievable.
Been trying to prep… went for a colon cleanse last week and this week (after the antibiotics my stomach was a mess!), still on the daily green juice and a few ginger / health shots. Getting in a few sessions of gym in while I can. Want to take a break after implantation day. Take it easy they say. So easy it shall be.
I wanted to share this amazing spiritual experience I had this week. Was insane... unbelievable actually.
At a dinner last week I was chatting to two good friends of mine and catching them up on my IVF etc. and the one suggested I try something called remote healing so I didn’t ask to many questions and thought ah why not, cant do any harm. Anyway left it at that and my friend messaged a few days later sending me the ladies details. The more I thought about it, the more apprehensive I became. I'm not really curious when it comes to things like that. I believe some things are better left. I don’t do psychics or mediums or any of that. I believe life happens as it should.
Anyway my friend followed up a few days later and I thought ah let me get in touch with this lady, REALLY having no clue what to expect. Anyway we scheduled time for my first session, this past Wednesday evening. Basically this lady is based in UK, you set a time, you go and relax in a quiet place and she taps into your energy and helps you heal and gets rid of things such as blockages - the idea is to create balance.
This is SO out of my comfort zone but I kept reminding myself to be open minded. Time for my session came, she said she would message me after the session to tell me how it went but I must relax, I may feel vibrations in my body and I may doze off.
So I relaxed at 8pm on the dot, a few minutes in I felt a heavy sensation over me, I tried to lift my arms / legs, I couldn’t…. HUH!? Anyway I remained relaxed, felt a sharp pain here and there. I was very aware for the first few minutes, but after that I zoned out completely. I didn’t sleep but went into almost a complete rest state. Was odd, I don’t relax easily! Then true as nuts I felt a few vibrations. INSANE! Next thing I knew I rolled over, looked at my bedside clock and it was 9pm. Honestly like maybe 10 minutes had passed.
I was blown away! I felt incredible.
I am having another session with her this weekend. So lets see…
I don’t want to get to enthralled by this all but I do believe it can only do good! She did say it took a while to clear my energy field because of lots of “stuck and dense” energy which was a true reflection of everything I have been through.
This was a very spiritual experience and in fact she is a very religious lady and does this as she feels its her calling. She doesn't charge a cent for it. Think what you like… I as a skeptic and I can wholeheartedly say it was pretty unbelievable.
Sunday, 20 August - 1 day before transfer
Can you believe the big day is tomorrow... speechless. Nerves have started to kick in a little but mostly feel excited.
I have had two healing sessions since my last post. Second one wasn't as hectic as first one, was more of a healing session, could feel warmth in specific areas, which was healing I was told. My third session... wow wow wow! I was so insanely blown away. It started with warmth in my stomach for a while. Once this lifted I felt a heavy feeling on my upper body which shifted dramatically on my left side, over my heart. I couldn't move my upper body at all and next thing I knew tears came streaming down my cheeks, for a while I just cried and cried, still not able to move. But it wasn't sad tears. It then subsided and I felt so at ease.
She told me it was because I was engulfed with love from the spirits and its almost as if your heart has been opened up and filled. Honestly this is exactly what it felt like!
So what have I prepped ahead of tomorrow? Honestly not to much. Tried to be as healthy as I can, went for my Intralipid infusion drip on Thursday (read up more on this via the link). On the progesterone.
So now its out of our hands. Positive vibes, thoughts and prayers all the way!
I have had two healing sessions since my last post. Second one wasn't as hectic as first one, was more of a healing session, could feel warmth in specific areas, which was healing I was told. My third session... wow wow wow! I was so insanely blown away. It started with warmth in my stomach for a while. Once this lifted I felt a heavy feeling on my upper body which shifted dramatically on my left side, over my heart. I couldn't move my upper body at all and next thing I knew tears came streaming down my cheeks, for a while I just cried and cried, still not able to move. But it wasn't sad tears. It then subsided and I felt so at ease.
She told me it was because I was engulfed with love from the spirits and its almost as if your heart has been opened up and filled. Honestly this is exactly what it felt like!
So what have I prepped ahead of tomorrow? Honestly not to much. Tried to be as healthy as I can, went for my Intralipid infusion drip on Thursday (read up more on this via the link). On the progesterone.
So now its out of our hands. Positive vibes, thoughts and prayers all the way!
Tuesday, 22 August 2017Day after transfer. Transfer done. Showee... the day we had waited for, for so long was done. It was now up to the universe, God and my body, to let nature run its course.
Transfer went really well. Our embryo survived the thawing, which in all honestly I had no doubt it would. This is the pic of our little embryo - so mind blowing! You can see in the top right hand corner it has actually already started to hatch which is great! Now it just needs to attach and grow to become a healthy baba. I took the next 3 days off work to literally do nothing. I actually went home straight after my transfer yesterday and slept all afternoon. Not like me at all! Trying hard to just give my body what it needed. Next up is bloods in 2 weeks. Positive vibes! |
Blood results
So first bloods done - Friday 1 September, Spring Day. You need to do first set of bloods 10 days after transfer, if this shows a positive, 3 days later do another set of bloods and the count has to at least double.
Went to the lab at 06h30 when they opened, Mr. S and I were awake from 3am. My nurse called just after 9 with the results. The wait between 7-9am was HORRENDOUS! I was an anxious mess! Back and forth in my mind:
... a bloody rollercoaster.
But results were positive. Mr. S and I just cried on the phone to each other. But at the same time we agreed not to get to excited because we had been down this road one, or twice, or three times over. I had to go for second bloods on Tuesday 5 September which honestly feels like a lifetime away.
I am really not a patient person by nature, neither is Mr. S - when we want something we generally do what we have to, to get it. And all we have done for the last 2 years of treatments (and before that trying naturally for 2 years) is WAIT! So by this point we really had to cope with waiting constantly, didn't mean it got any easier!
So off I went again at 06h30 for second bloods. I had started being incredibly tired over the last few days. Unable to keep my eyes open by the time I got home from work and having to nap everyday. I really am not a napper so this was odd. But after such a long journey you take every "sign" with a pinch of salt and almost learn to shrug it off. The hormones and meds cause havoc with your body so you actually have no idea if your symptoms are caused by that or if you are actually pregnant.
I had a meeting from 09h00-10h00 and my nurse was meant to call me just after 09h00. I was sitting in the meeting and there my phone lit up at 09h20 while I was sitting in the meeting. I wondered do I go answer, but then I thought how do I come back into this meeting composed. I really didn't want any attention drawn to me. So I opted to call her back. LONGEST MEETING EVER!
I called and she wasn't available. SERIOUSLY!? I waited and waited and she called me around 10h30. Count went up nicely and we were pregnant she said. I actually couldn't believe it. I went to my car to call Mr. S and I actually just screamed - I was in shock honestly speaking. I called my best friend and we both just cried and cried, was such a surreal feeling.
WE.ARE.PREGNANT... I kept reminding myself.
Went to the lab at 06h30 when they opened, Mr. S and I were awake from 3am. My nurse called just after 9 with the results. The wait between 7-9am was HORRENDOUS! I was an anxious mess! Back and forth in my mind:
- Be positive
- Don't be too positive - be realistic
- Your history isn't good so don't get your hopes up
- Don't be stupid be positive
... a bloody rollercoaster.
But results were positive. Mr. S and I just cried on the phone to each other. But at the same time we agreed not to get to excited because we had been down this road one, or twice, or three times over. I had to go for second bloods on Tuesday 5 September which honestly feels like a lifetime away.
I am really not a patient person by nature, neither is Mr. S - when we want something we generally do what we have to, to get it. And all we have done for the last 2 years of treatments (and before that trying naturally for 2 years) is WAIT! So by this point we really had to cope with waiting constantly, didn't mean it got any easier!
So off I went again at 06h30 for second bloods. I had started being incredibly tired over the last few days. Unable to keep my eyes open by the time I got home from work and having to nap everyday. I really am not a napper so this was odd. But after such a long journey you take every "sign" with a pinch of salt and almost learn to shrug it off. The hormones and meds cause havoc with your body so you actually have no idea if your symptoms are caused by that or if you are actually pregnant.
I had a meeting from 09h00-10h00 and my nurse was meant to call me just after 09h00. I was sitting in the meeting and there my phone lit up at 09h20 while I was sitting in the meeting. I wondered do I go answer, but then I thought how do I come back into this meeting composed. I really didn't want any attention drawn to me. So I opted to call her back. LONGEST MEETING EVER!
I called and she wasn't available. SERIOUSLY!? I waited and waited and she called me around 10h30. Count went up nicely and we were pregnant she said. I actually couldn't believe it. I went to my car to call Mr. S and I actually just screamed - I was in shock honestly speaking. I called my best friend and we both just cried and cried, was such a surreal feeling.
WE.ARE.PREGNANT... I kept reminding myself.